This week hasn’t been the best for me mentally. I have felt like I have dropped and smashed all the plates I was spinning into teeny tiny splinters on the tiled floor. I had been doing well with the lockdown. Work was busy, but handling it, kids were doing their work, had some activities and were playing well together. Then, we reached the middle of week 5 and I think I snapped. I was struggling to keep up with work, kids didn’t seem to have done the school work they thought they had done and they were starting to niggle and bicker. And there seemed to be no minutes inside when there wasn’t someone there. I started to become snappy, shouty mum I hated, grumpy wife and everything was too much and anything I said was taken the wrong way. I removed myself from social media as I normally do when I get like this as I try to be a positive person and when I’m not, I don’t like myself. So, there you have it. I am feeling better today, Friday. I am just tried. The constant juggle is just getting on top of me a bit, the weekend is here and that’ll make all the difference. Don’t get me wrong, I am so so grateful to be still working, I know I shouldn’t moan but I just need to vent a bit. The kids are healthy and so are Robert and I, I am grateful our wee bubble is here and we are intact. I got some lovely news from a very wonderful friend about a baby being born and so cute. A lovely friend texted me to see how I was and I’m so grateful for this blog and my favourite spot on twitter for bringing so many wonderful people within my reach in my little phone. It helps so much. Now, enough about my gripes. How are you doing? Are you pulling your hair out now we are in week 5? Or are you loving life with a glass of wine in the sunshine with a good book?
Since last week’s our weekly post we are still on lockdown, school is back and we are still all working and schooling from our living room. Yes, all five of us. Let’s talk about the weekend first. Last Saturday I ventured out of the house to the chemist and a shop. I needed to pick up my prescription. Who knew it would be so nerve-wracking doing something I’ve done loads, but it was and it was like something out of a post-apocalyptic film with their visor style masks, gloves, screens and taped lines. But it was ok and it keeps everyone save and well. Got my prescription and ventured to by a few wee bits. It wasn’t too bad, strange with the whole queuing thing, but it’s done and I would do it again. Maybe… one day. When I arrived back home, I washed down and hugged my family tight. Then I went outside to cut the hedges, tidy up and admire my topiary. Ok, very squint cut hedges. We had a wee takeaway delivery as a treat and I did some sewing with Aria before Robert and I watched The Nest. Now, it was filmed closish to where I live and bits in my hometown. I can’t say I was taken by it.
Sunday, Robert did some power washing of the garden. I got some editing done and I washed the windows inside and out. Now, this isn’t something I have done before, don’t ask. It’s not like they have never been done, but I’ve not done them. I didn’t do the best job, but not I know I don’t fall out of the top landing window, it might be something I carry on doing. The new me. Albeit I’m still clumsy. The kids blew some bubbles while I repaired the bin shed with a hammer and nails. None of my nails was broken in the doing of this chore so that’s a win. The boys kicked lots of footballs into our neighbour’s gardens, so we spent a lot of time apologising and saying thank you as they landed back into our garden. Robert and I put some reflective sheeting on the loft playroom/game room windows, not our finest, but it does the job. I did some more editing and my mum stopped by with Oreo. He did not understand why he couldn’t come in to play with Twilight wee soul. He is a daft dog.
Monday it was back to school for the kids, well, home school. After the relaxed two weeks of no school work after the first two weeks of loving the homeschool, I think the novelty has worn off. They did it, well the younger two did. Oldest, turns out doesn’t seem to have much or so he thought. The boys have started some online football training, so they are doing that together and of course, it’s causing no arguments of getting in one another’s way whatsoever. But, then they will only do it when they are together. They are best of friends and drive each other up the wall too. Aria and I did some sewing in the evening. She is quite taken by it and it seems I don’t have enough material to make bears. Other people’s clothes may be used soon. We waved to Robert’s parents when out for a walk this evening.
Poor wee Tyler wasn’t feeling great on Tuesday. He stayed in his bed most of the day but come evening he had bounced back. He managed to do some football training and I got some editing done in the evening. I did some more sewing of the bunny. Good grief it is taking me forever to sew it. I promise I’ll post a picture when it’s done, but don’t be expecting something spectacular. Aria did her gymnastics she enjoyed. I took the lovely sky picture from the end of the street. The weather has been amazing, hasn’t it?
Wednesday saw some more school work, the grass getting cut. Lots of work for Robert and I work-wise, chores getting done and Aria got her new Amelia Earhart book. She loves this lady and the fact she shares her middle name with her, I think she thinks they are related. She read some of the book to me in the evening, she was chuffed. I started to feel quite down on Wednesday and snapped at the kids. This is when I felt like plates were starting to fall. Starting with I missed half of Aria’s gymnastics as I was on a call for work. I felt so bad. She joined in and got on fine. I got a wee picture of her with the ball work. The kids were starting to get a bit bored and with work being busy, it’s hard to print off and all the craft kids I had have been done.
Thursday I felt very tired and grumpy. Helped Lucas with his school work as he’d fallen behind a little. Work was busy and I completely missed Aria’s gymnastics. Such a rubbish mummy I felt. I know these things happen, but I felt so bad. I felt down and that everything had fallen to the wayside. We went out for a walk in the evening and the kids took Lucas boomerang so it was fun as you can see above. I went to my bed a bit earlier and read for a bit.
Friday is here and it’s a better day. The kids did what they had to do school wise. I got up early before work and did the cleaning, so that makes things a bit better and the washing was all done. Work was busy, but not too busy and the sun is shining. Lucas did a 5k run to donate to the NHS and things seem to be a bit brighter. I’m back on top of things and hopefully, I’ll get through the things I feel are on top of me. So now for the weekend, I am looking forward to it. I’m hopefully back to my more positive self and things will look brighter. I hope you have a good one and do remember if you feel down or our of sorts, send me a wee message. I will always listen. Take care and hugs.
Ah, the windows! Yes, I should probably clean the inside of the windows myself. Thanks for the reminder! Sorry to hear the week has been tough. This week has been the toughest for us so far as well, truth be told. Our eldest had a bit of a tummy bug and looking after ill child, home working and home schooling was tough. Feel for you Susan. Hope this week and all we can do is our best (which is more than enough, I am sure!). Headed over from #MySUndayPhoto
It is way overrated, the kids just mess them up with rainbows 😉 It has been hard for everyone I think. Aww port wee soul, I hope they are feeling better and no one else gets it. Thank you x
So sorry to hear you’ve been struggling a bit. Hope you are starting to feel a bit better now. It must be hard with all three kids trying to do schoolwork, plus you and Robert working full time. Don’t feel guilty that you don’t see Aria doing her gymnastics. It’s all such a different situation at the moment and I’m sure she doesn’t mind.
I really enjoyed The Nest. It’s just the sort of series I like. Of course I don’t have Netflix so I don’t have as much choice as most people! x
Thank you. I think a lot are. Hugs. It is hard, but it is one of those things. Got taken away from me this week. xxx
Gorgeous photos, sorry to hear that this week has been tough. Hopefully, this week improves.
It’s a unique situation that we all find ourselves in.
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Thank you. It is a strange situation xx
So sorry things haven’t been good for you. I am glad you are feeling a little better now. This lock down is hard and we all need to vent a little.
My dad’s partner said she went to the chemist and it was the scariest experience she’s had thoughout all of this. I suppose they’re just keeping everyone safe though.
My girls are the same as your boys arguing one minute and the best of friends the next. I struggle to keep up.
Welldone Lucas with the run x
Thank you. I think we are all getting a bit like that. Yeah, the chemist does seem very strict. I know, i think as an only child I feel like screaming at them to be grateful xx
Glad you managed to bounce back. It’s tough on everyone this new way of living. Glad the boys are enjoying the football even if it isn’t without it’s problems. Sounds like you are keeping very busy with work, the children and the house.
Thank you. It is hard isn’t it? They miss it, but are at least doing something. xx
I’m sorry that this week has been such a tough one. It is hard trying to juggle everything especially when you’re working from home on top of sorting out homeschooling and everything out. Glad that Aria is enjoying her Amelia Earhart book and the boys are enjoying their online football training. Hope that next week will be a better one for you. #project366
Thank you. It is hard. Thank you xx
I have been cleaning my windows too and apparently its going to rain today – that will undo all of my work haha. Love the photos, sorry this weeks been tough. I am too finding it really hard to juggle home working and home schooling all in one day. Especially if the kids are mucking about.
That book looks interesting.
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So it’s your fault it rained lol It is not easy hon. You’ve got this xx
Sorry to hear you had a tough week Susan. Hope this week is much better for you. It must be really hard juggling everything. Sending you and the family lots of love. X
Thank you lovely. We all do what we have to xxx
Awww hun sending you a BIG hug, I know just how your feeling, it does get a bit overwhelming juggling so much, my two are terrible for arguing with each other, but your doing a grand job! You have got this lovely x
Thank you lovely. It is hard, but hopefully it will get better. Thank you x
I got the outside of mine last week, need to get the insides, plenty of time on my hands but much rather be crafting of some sort.
No wonder your plates fell and smashed into pieces, far to much going on at home for working parents with kids. Sending a hug
I was never much good with a Frisbee
Well done lovely. Yes, I am the same, to be honest. Maybe you are right. Thanks, lovely Me either xxx
I think we all have days when we feel tired and irritable, take it out on the kids/husband then beat ourselves up about it, but you’re allowed an off day from time to time too. It will help everyone realise how fantastic you are on a good day ! Seriously though, don’t sweat over it – we’re all only human and sometimes it all gets a bit much. The chemist does sound a bit stressful – although here in France, we’re planning on coming out of confinement and going back to school in 3 weeks and that sounds equally stressful. It’s so hard to know what to do for the best (not that I’ve actually got any choice about going back to work anyway !). Hugs xxx
I think so. I am glad it’s not just me. Thank you. I hope so. I hope things are going ok for you xx
Hope the weekend was better for you. I cleaned the inside of our downstairs windows a few weeks ago for the first time in forever! Still need to do the outside and upstairs, but they are better than they were.
It was better. Thank you. It does seem to take it’s time xx
Sorry to hear you’ve had a tough week, I feel the same about shopping and hadn’t been for 2 weeks and have no desire to again anytime soon. Although I don’t have kids at home or a job to worry about, i still feel guilty if i dare to complain. Glad the week picked up for you
Thank you. It has been a bit better. xx
This week has been really tough for me. Everything has felt a struggle. I hope you’re feeling a bit better now, it looks like the kids are enjoying themselves anyway! x
Sending lots of love. I hope it got better xx
It’s not easy juggling everything is it? Believe me, I understand- oh how I understand and my thoughts are with you. Lovely photos (as always) – Thanks for sharing and for linking up with #MySundaySnapshot.
It is hard isn’t it? Sending lots of love xx
Sorry to hear you have been struggling. It has been very up and down here too, the kids are under each others feet and the constant bickering is driving me insane. Hope this week is kinder to you all
Thanks hon. It has been hard. It is getting easier xx
I think a lot of people have found week 5 and the end of a whole month and no end in sight quite hard, I know I had some real wobble moments this week too, so hugs, and I hope you are doing ok? It’s not easy this, is it?
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It does seem to have gotten hard then. Sending big hugs x
Sorry to hear it has been a tough week. I don’t have to juggle working from home but even then can find it stressful sometimes so can only imagine how hard it must be for the working parents.
I hope things are going ok for you x
I broke last week. I find the juggling so hard and all the guilt that goes with not spending enough time on the kids. I hope the last couple of weeks have been kinder to you x