I seem to have a case of the January blues and I need to snap out of it. I have my youngest’s third birthday on Saturday and I want him to have the best day. I do suffer from Post Natal Depression, hard to admit but I’m over the worst of that a post I have yet to write but I will. I just need to put it into words that don’t make me out to be some kind of blithering idiot. But, this is different I’m not depressed or at least I don’t think so. I just feel down and just can’t get into the swing of things. I’m sure a lot of people feel this way this time of year. Do you?
I had a great time when I was off work over the Christmas period, it was hectic at times but I got to spend lots of quality time with the boys, just being with them, setting up their toys and playing with them. It was the oldest’s birthday Christmas eve, my brother in laws birthday Hogmanay and my hubby’s birthday the 3rd of January so it was busy but good fun. Did you have a good time?
Then I went back to work. I let my blog stuff slide, which meant loads to catch up on, I haven’t been reading as much lately so loads of books to catch up on. I just couldn’t get back into them, but then I read one last week which I absolutely loved so hopefully the book reading bit is over with. I love to blog but have so many emails to catch up on commenting on other blogs I may have to delete and just keep up with new ones. I will catch up and I want to, I want everything under control so I can write my novel again. I miss writing and feel everything else is getting in the way, but I don’t want to give anything up either. How do you do it?
Twitter and my friends I haven’t always felt like chatting. I just wanted to go to bed and hide. But not always, plus I was enjoying my book so hiding under the duvet with that was good. Do you get like that?
At work we are so busy as I had some engineers leave. And with new ones starting, it’s always a challenge. We also have an apprentice so that’s more work. Being the manager of the department, I am in charge or them and they direct their questions at me, so many questions, but that’s how it goes and they will settle it just takes time.
Really I am just a bit down in the dumps, not depressed just a bit out of sorts, too much to do, not enough time and pay day feels like forever away. Why is January such a long month in the pay department? I will be back to my normal self soon I hope, I just need to clear my feet.
Sorry for rambling on because I feel like I have here. Do you get like this in January? Is the January blues a real thing? Or do I just need a kick up the backside?
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