This week’s theme for the wonderful Tara’s The Gallery is Ugly.
This was by far the toughest one for me so far. Ugly to me is the horrendous scar I got from my C-section with my now one year old. It may not look too bad for everyone else but to me it’s repulsive and makes me feel so sick I can’t even bare to look at it. Not only that but the feeling it has is so sore and raw, that it feels like someone has taken a potato peeler and peeled my skin off. I feel I look like a monster…..
Here is the picture, this may dissapear if I can no longer stand it being on display, but I wanted to share my mental agony over a year on.
Check out the other entries for this week at Tara’s Blog Sticky Fingers.
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seriously… get your butt over here and lets do the drunken scar comp….Three of my babas have come out that way ( it is better that 17 stitches in the other place….). xx
I'm sorry you hate it so much…my friends who have had c-sections have told me they do fade…do you put anything on it like bio oil or vitamin e oil? I've heard they do wonders for scars. Maybe you should mention to your GP about the pain as well. x
*big hugs* very brave of you to post it.
I promise, promise, promise (would I lie to you?!) it will fade. And the sensation of pain will does go. But maybe you should get the pain part of it checked out by your GP?
You will be fine you know ?It will fadeBut there should be no pain !!!Anyway, the subject here, is uglyAnd it is not !It's not pretty either, it's nothing, but it gave you your babyIsn't THAT beautiful ?
Oh bless you, it took ages for my scar to die down (and DD is 2.5 now). And I lost all sensation, then had tingly weird pain as nerves knitted back and now it's slightly numb! But it will fade – I have also had a reduction on my upper half (due to collapsing back) and so I've been through it before and my scarring is worse and more visible. I promise the c section looks much better than those scars. Bio Oil is great and actually just rubbing it and getting circulation in there does wonders (although I know it's a bit icky to touch it sometimes). Big hugs!
I have one of those too – snap!Although you can't see mine under the tummy overhang ;-)I was completely numb from my tummy button to just below the scar until very very recently. And the scar itself is still tingly. I know what you mean about the cheese grater – it's just that all of the nerves have been severed, horrible, but inevitable. And sensation comes back differently for everyone I think.I haven't used oils because, like you, I don't like to look or touch my scar, and it feels so odd. But it is fading. And I am getting used to it.Yes, the scars can seem ugly. They can make us feel bad about how things went, they can make us feel bad about the way we look. But they are reminders of the beautiful little ones that we have brought into this world by our literal blood sweat and tears. So, really, your scar is beautiful.
Thank you all for your comments & support, your kind words mean more than you know to me. I don't think of the scar having produced my beautiful baby, I don't know why but I don't associate the two together. Maybe that is why I have such a problem with it. I had an awful birth but you are right I do have something wonderful. Yet I still feel like a monster. I am sure over time I will get there. In the meantime thank you. xx
You are so brave for putting this up especially how you feel about it, I know it will get better over time. I dont think its ugly at all though lots of love xxx
Have you seen your doctor about it? Seriously, if it's that painful still I really would. Mine must be the same sort of vintage as yours (December 08) and I can barely see it, much less feel it. In fact I mostly forget it's there. There must be something someone can do to help so don't suffer in silence, please!Oh, and ps it's not ugly at all, it's amazing. Well done you.
Oh my darling I know how brave you were to make this post and I can never have the words to make you know that nothing about you can ever be ugly to me. You are truly beautiful. And I know in time your scars (both those that we can physically see and the deeper ones that we can't) will be healed. There are so many lovely comments and I hope you truly know how loved and supported you are my lovely xxxxx
Thank you again my wonderful friends. I will post some more information about this shortly. Luv ya all x
I do know how you feel, mine is still numb and sometimes sore, it is fadeing 16 months after the c-section. x